Tomorrow at this time, I will be sitting at the beach listening to the sound of the waves passing by. I will be soaking in the sun and chasing after my little porkbun on the beach as well. I can't wait. I am leaving for my trip tomorrow, whoo-hoo, I'm so excited I can't wait to get out of this Bay Area for couple days.
Besides just visiting the wonderful island of Kailua-Kona, I will also be reuniting with my looong time friend from high school - Rayegon. A very unique name she has that no one will ever forget after meeting her. She is one strong character indeed. We knew each other since our freshmen year in high school. We used to write little notes to each other and pass it to each other. I remember those days when we all had so much more time to do things we enjoyed. Writing little fun notes, loong notes... I remember I used to write pages and pages of letters to my friends.
I wonder if high school girls still do that this generation. Or is everyone communicating through text messaging thru phones during class now? Everything is email now. I do miss those handwritten letters and cards that I used to receive in my mailbox. The texture of those papers. The cutting of the envelope. The beautiful stationery you get to use and collect. I used to keep in touch with all my friends from primary school and high school by mailing handwritten letters and cassette tapes. I used to record my voice like a phone conversation to my friend but I'm actually just talking to the recorder. I still keep those letters in boxes in my garage. Some of them, I can't get myself to throw them away. My high school memories are all kept in boxes. When I open up the boxes, memories from high school just pour out constantly.
My dear friend Rayegon is one of the strongest woman I've known. She was a teenage mom. She eloped with her boyfriend when she was a teenager. Been through a rough divorce and is now a single mom of 2 boys - age 6 and 9. Its been almost 6 and 1/2 years since I last saw her. Her boys were still toddlers and a baby when I met them. I can't imagine how tall they must be now.
Life passes us by too incredibly fast sometimes. So much have happened with my own life in just the last 5 years. I wish I still had that time where I can just sit there and write a nice little handwritten letter to a friend, paste a stamp on the envelope and send it away. It makes me happy to see my friends and family happy. Its part of what makes life meaningful to me. There really is only a couple things I live for in life and that is to have a close family, good friends, happiness, love and good health. I think we often forget to sit back and think about what we live our lives for. Are we just living just to live? Are we going to work because its just a job and it pays? are we sometimes missing the meaning of what life is all about? or that some people are still doing some soul searching at this stage of our lives?
I think often times, alot of us forget to just stop and see where we are in our lives or what we are doing with it as we move on forward. What's our goal? I think with all the new technology invented and computers and gadgets around, our generation have become more lazy, more dependable, and less simple. Gadgets, computers and technology are suppose to help simplify our life but sometimes I feel that it has done just the opposite. The more we have, the more we are overwhelmed with it. Sometimes I really believe that in life, less is more. It really is.
I yearn for those old fashioned days when kids used to just go outside and just play HopScotch. Run around and be more active. I am seeing more and more kids walking around with gameboys in their hands these days.
I do admit that I am a bad mom myself, I allow my little porkbun to watch TV during dinner. Yeh, its bad. I know but I still do it. There are so many rules with raising a child, don't do this, that is bad, don't eat that, do this. For me, I just think that if that's what it takes for my little porkbun to finish his dinner, then so be it. 30 minutes of TV won't kill him, at least he's eating his food. He needs to eat to grow. Especially when his pediatrician tells me he NEEDS to gain weight.
As much as I do love computers, TVs, gadgets, technology, cell phones, etc. I do miss living a simple life where all the electronic gagets just simply dissappeared on the face of the earth for one entire day. If I can live for that one day again, I wonder what I would be doing right now. Not checking email, not on the phone, not watching TV, not playing video games, and definitely not blogging for sure. I will not have this e-addiction and will probably be spending more time cleaning the house or a bit more quality time with my littlepork bun just enjoying each other's company, giggling together, laughing our heads off together over Cheerios stuck to mommy's forehead.
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